in love

i know i know all i do is post music videos. . . .  but i can't remember the last time i fell in love with a band like I have with Glasvegas. i seriously can't get enough!!! i promise you will fall in love!

So here is a video that was made of our fashion show. It turned out very well.

What would you do?

If you were offered a job to work in Afghanistan would you take it?

I assume most of you would say no in a heartbeat. As for me, I am really considering it. I would be working for a college that provides educational opportunities for servicemen to gain an education while deployed. I would basically be an academic adviser.

Here is a list of reasons why I should go:

1) An Adventure (I've been studying the Middle East this last semester and I think it what be neat to be able to go there).

2) I wouldn't be on the front line. I would be on the base, totally safe. So my overall safety would not be a concern.

3) I would be making good money that could help pay off a good chunk of my student loans.

4) My training would be in Germany for about a month. BOMB!

5) It would only be for 6 months. Afterward, with the money I was able to earn and save while working I could easily travel Europe. (It will probably be winter, so I would probably stick to the Mediterranean).

6) I think this could be a good missionary opportunity.

7) Also I've really been wanting an experience that will help me grow as an individual and become stronger.  I believe this could definitely help me achieve such a thing.

Here are some cons:

1) I would probably be gone for Christmas (but it's not like I haven't done that before).

2) I would be in Afghanistan, so there is always some risk involved. Again, I would only be on the base.

3) I would be working 77 hours a work. SUCKS!!! But then again it's only for 6 months. Also I think working all those hours would be kind of an honor. In a sense I would be giving back to the many soldiers that serve our nation.

Those are my thoughts on the matter. Decisions. Decisions.

Update this!!!!!

Where to begin?

1) I've decided not to move to NYC :( The closer it got, the more it didn't feel right. In the moment it felt so good. I thought I was made to be a New Yorker. Who knows? Maybe someday I will make it there, but for right now I am relying that what I was feeling was for some reason I don't know yet.

2) So I had told my employer that I was moving to NYC and before I could tell them that I was no longer going they hired someone else. Which is totally my fault. But there is nothing I can do now. They have been nice enough to let me stay working there through May. Hopefully in the mean time I can find a job. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I am trying to be patient that I will end up going where I need to go.

3) Two Saturdays ago I had my big fashion show. This year it was sooooo legit. Last year was good. But wow!!! this year was phenomenal! (Not to boast or anything!!!) I promise as soon as I get pics I will post them. Some people suggested that I go into event planning, hmmmm!

4) It was fun to have these 2 critters come visit from NYC.

Sad not to have these guys as roomies, but hope to be able to visit them soon!

5) I graduate on Thursday/Friday!!!!!

6) Sunday was a bitter sweet day. My Bishop of 3 years was released. I am happy that he will now be able to spend time with his family.  He made so many sacrifices for each one of us in our ward.  I can't begin to explain how eternally grateful I am to have known this man.  He has seen me at the lowest point in my life. Not once did he judge me. He never turned his back on me, but saw me for who I really am.  He saw potential in me and encouraged me to be my best self. 

Each member in the bishopric meant so much to me these last couple of years. They had given me so much. I can't publicly tell you the many things they did and said to me because I hold those memories dear to my heart.  I wanted to share something with them for once, something that means so much to me.

 

The following is an exerpt from the letter I wrote each of them:

"I am an avid reader of Holocaust literature.  Out of all the many books I have read on the subject, this book, The Hiding Place, has impacted my life the most.  You may have already read it, for it is a well-known book.  Its message is of hope.  About three years ago, before I moved into the ward I began to feel that I was alone and that I had been forgotten.  As I read this book, I was reminded that despite the evil that may surround us, there is much to be grateful for.  When everything seems so bleak and out of control, there is reason to have hope.  Though I felt like there could not possibly be anyone that knew exactly what I was going through in that moment, I was reminded that there was one person that understood my pain, my Heavenly Father.  I wanted to share this book with you because it was in this book I was reminded that there was still good in the world; that there are still loving, genuine and selfless individuals such as you that exist."

As I said my goodbyes, as I hugged Bishop McCurdy, I bawled like a freakin baby. It was ridiculous. I think the whole ward thinks I am freak now, more than they already did haha.  It is weird to think that this man who had been like a father figure to me these last 3 years as I have lived away from home is now gone.

 

"Every experience God gives us, every person He puts in our lives, is the perfect preparation for the future that only He can see." ~Corrie Ten Boom

makes me feliz

presenting . . . .

I'd like to introduce you to Icicle Dust! My girl Devo and her BFF Dakota have partnered up to make some pretty amazing music. They are coming to perform at my fashion show in a month. I can't wait!!!

horseees

I wish winter was all year long. I want this!

25

Well this year my b-day fell on a Sunday so I decided to celebrate the day before. Last year we went to this fancy Italian restaurant in Salt Lake. I really liked the restaurant but I invited too many people and I sat at the end of the table, which made it difficult to talk to everyone. This year it was only a dinner of 8. Once again I sat at the end of the table and wasn't able to converse with some of my peeps. I decided to go to Osaka and get sushi (well I didn't get real sushi, I usually just get a veggie roll)

Wall & Kim came and bickered, it did make for an entertaining evening. Kim bought me a boquet of balloons and made me carry them through the freakin restaurant, ugh!

Malcomb made me a bomb red velvet cake. (which my roomates devored yesterday)

After dinner we went to the Walls and played a little poker. Wall wanted to make it strip poker but Kim was not pleased with the idea.

Wall kicked our trash!

Malcomb was pissed she was losing!

 Overall it was a good time!

 If I live to a normal age of 75, I have now lived a 1/3 of my life, DEPRESSING!

 

90%

I am 90% sure that this could possibly be my hood in 2 month. The more I think about New York, the more I want to move there.  Devani is totally cool with letting me rent their extra room in Harlem (pic above is of Harlem).

I am trying to work with recruiters with my current employer so I can transfer within the company. If I go there without a job I am going to take a leap of faith and hope I can find one within a month. If not I'll make sure I at least have enough money to buy a plan ticket back to AZ after I run out of money! I want to make a decision by the end of this month. Stay tuned!

i want you, i need you

ok i never ever blog anymore, mainly because my life is pretty boring right now. i can't get NYC out of my mind. it's been only a month since i visited the big apple and i crave it daily. when i went there, it instantly felt like home and i felt like i belonged there. i graduate in 2.5 months and i want to take a year off and just work and live before going to graduate school. i am seriously contemplating taking a risk and moving there. one of my most favorite peeps in the world lives there (devani), amazing stores (mainly topman), awesome architecture, sweet diversity and great food (best red velvet cake in brooklyn heights), so what is stopping me?

tonight's obsession

So is it sad I rely on shows like Gossip Girl and 90210 to find new music? Well tonight on Gossip Girl I was introduced to "The Drums". I discovered this song "Best Friends" and fell in love.

P.S. I want to dance like this guy!

song of the week

this is my favorite song as of hmmmmmmm 10 minutes ago!

to make the band even cooler, it's a husband and wife duo!

oh the band's name is "tennis" and the song is called "Marathon"

owlz

Shane and fiance Kelsey just sent me the coolest beanie ever in the mail. It was the best thing that happened to me today. Wait that's a lie, I found out my car is going to cost $1200 to get fixed! That was the best news. Back to the matter at hand, I'll be wearing this all winter so get used to it. Don't like it, tough.....

When I go to Oakland for their wedding I am so getting that Koala beanie you see there in the middle row all the way to the right.

I just found another pic of one online

then I came across this little gem....

 

love zebras!

See, I do not think I am ballzy enough to wear it right now that's why I got the Owl one first, baby steps!

hitchhiking

ok so today I was talking to Natalie about how I pooed my pants on my mission because I got a major parasite. I told her I had photos to show how I had lost like 10 pounds that week. While I was looking through pics I found some videos.

During p-days in Aguadulce, there was nothing to do. We were about an hour away from the nearest missionaries. There was only so many times you could go to the same restaurant so we decided to take a nice bike ride to the beach. Little did we know it was the grossest beach ever but it was forever away.

So we went up a little further and it was even worse!!! But I did take, in my opinion the best pic of my mission. It's not that great, but I like it.

Oh and here's me chillin . . . with the member that showed us the way.

To our surprise 3 members from our branch showed up out of nowhere.

They were pissed we didn't take them with us. We noticed they didn't bring any bikes and there are no buses that go out there. So we asked them how they got out there.....

Yah in case you couldn't hear, they hitchhicked there  . . . 

 so after about a half hour of mingling with the locals . . .

Yes we decided to hitchhike back!!! Best decision of mission. So fun! I could not stop laughing. One of my favorite memories of Panama.

♥ 2 ♥

Last night after a really fun dinner I had at my place, my friend Aimee and I went on a walk. We had quite the deep conversation about life. I was reminded of some quotes from one of the most incredible women in fashion, Diane von Furstenberg.

"You're always with yourself, so you might as well enjoy the company."

"The most important relationship in your life is the relationship you have with yourself. Because no matter what happens, you will always be with yourself."

Sure our relationships with others are vital but like she said it is important to have a relationship with ourselves, as weird as that sounds. From a religious point of view, obviously the relationship that should take precedent above all others, is our relationship with God. I believe as our relationship with God is strengthened it is only natural that our relationship with our self strengthens. 

OK I know I post these videos all the time. Seriously I am obsessed! This one is an oldie and I hadn't watched it in such a long time. I seriously cry every time I watch this one. This video really makes me think how selfish I can be at times. I get so caught up in my own life and my own problems that I don't see all the people around me that need help or just a friend. I have been the recipient of so many acts of love this last year.  People do not realize how a simple smile or phone call has made my day. I am striving to develop and show that same love to those around me.

Never sacrifice what you want most for what you want in the moment.

serenity

I luvvv this poem. I didn't realize how well known it was but I was so happy to find it.

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.    Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen. --Reinhold Niebuhr

Today I went to the temple for the first time in a long time. All I got to say is BOMB!

Jail La La

Those of you that will be in Salt Lake on the 26th (I will be in AZ) need to go see dum dum girls and she&him. it's free and they are both amazing bands. This is one of my favorite songs of 2010!

I can't imagine